aidyl

2007-07-12T03:06:00.000-07:00

ok here i am..

im kinda piss with whats going on around me right now..

i dun care whoever it is...and oh...if u wanna make a joke about people look at yourself..first ok...oh..and btw...so wat..?atleast...i dun need someone to back me up...:D..

2007-07-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

ok...its 1121...

and i realy miss u so badly..

youre ma addiction

2007-07-05T07:38:00.000-07:00

ok..its been awhile huh...hhahaha...

ok..recently...i juz find out..theres a few guys hate me..and i dun give a crap about them..so yeah...a big F to them...ok..lately i feel so stress out..cause of studies...penat babe...haizz...ok no matter...

im looking forward for next week..YIPPIE!!!!!

DATE!!! wuhuuUUU

2007-06-27T19:54:00.001-07:00

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2007-06-25T01:02:00.000-07:00

Slow down, lie down, remember it's just you and me
Don't sell out, bow out, remember how this used to be
I just want you closer is that alright, baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside

Now I've found, that I'm bound, to wander down that one-way road
And I realise all about your lies, but I'm no wiser than the fool that I was before
I just want you closer is that alright, baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside me

Baby, baby, baby, tell me how can, how can this be wrong?
Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside me
One last time let's go there, lay down beside me

2007-06-24T08:13:00.001-07:00

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2007-06-17T01:30:00.000-07:00

k...I FINISH MA ART COMPO!!!!!...hurayy...tmr...gona meet miss hoe..if shes there...

oh oh..and..should hear the song new shoes..yeah...awesome...and like jenny dont be hasty...yeah..:D....heee

2007-06-16T08:30:00.000-07:00

ok..i almost complete ma compo..but than again theres still alot more i havent done...shish....next week...im gona start drilling.....damn...

2007-06-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

The way you laughs;
the way you smile;
the way we end the night;

i love ya

2007-06-11T06:15:00.000-07:00

im so tired....freaking..these few days ive been like art 24/7 art...damn im so exhousted..baik arh...aku lagi oleh relax...current ly listening to hey there delilah...cam sedap kan sayang..??:D....ok...im not suppose to be like online...but i need a break...im so tired...

oh yeah i cant wait for prom night...LIKE OMG!!!!!!!....haizz...but i have to face this damn big obstacle..THAT IS `o` level...haizz....gtg man...

arting...:D

2007-06-10T00:09:00.000-07:00

i wont let u cry no more..i swear...

and u were ma answer i long awaited...and u were my hope..
all this while u were there...but i didnt noe..

i didnt know u waited...
i didnt know u cry...
i didnt know...
till u told

i know u cry..
finally we heard your sorrow...

i know that u know..that WE LOVE EACH OTHER...

2007-06-05T19:47:00.000-07:00

ive been thinking lately..

kinda deep...yeah...i know what i want...i know where im going..but...something is missing...

oh yeah..past few days were a blast..with party,x box 360,ma mom dad...and like everything..OH...and LJ....:D

u gave eur heart..ill treasure...
u gave ur trust...i will not break..

..:D...

i wanna tell u ma fears

2007-06-03T07:03:00.000-07:00

2007-05-29T07:06:00.000-07:00

Want to, but I cant help it
I love the way it feel
Just got me stuck between My fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it,
I want it when I don't
Tell myself I stop everyday knowing that I wont

Taking by the thought of it
and I know this much is true
Baby you.. had become my addiction
I'm so strong, I want youI can't barely move,
but I like itand then it's all because of you

Because of you and it's all because of you.
Never get enough, she's the sweetest stuff
She's the sweetest stuff

2007-05-27T23:31:00.000-07:00

the thought of you come over me

it was kinda weird when we first met
drooling at your eyes,refusing to talk
its a regret how much pain u endure
get it straight,right to da point
2 girl..make wrong choice

and now shes ma lady

i was like `damn y`all i make it wrong`
it was like a disaster gona happen and its taking its course
could i turn back the clock
and give it a halt

but wait think back..
we`re now so strong

burn the story once and for all
its not a lie when i say
i cant see me without you
its not a lie when i say i love you..

remember the late calls..?
our laughter and all
u were there like listen to it all
u were there to giggle it all

i love you more than yesterday

2007-05-25T22:17:00.000-07:00

Ma lil` sunshine...i love u like loads arh...cam best gitu kan..:D..semlam cam best gitu kan?kan kan kan..??weee~

im like waiting..till like...errmm next week..??kan u...??weee....like happy like that larh ngn u...hahahah...yeah..:D...and..like we are so exhousted when we reach home...kan..ahaha...

i lurve u alot(gazillion time)..like seriusli arh...

i like the way ur palm touch against mine..dun ever let me go otey...:D....

2007-05-02T06:23:00.000-07:00

aku merenung matamu,aku tertanya-tanya
pilunya hatiku,soal percintaan kita
aku membisu,tidak berkata
aku cinta padamu,lydia

aku ini ibaratkan terseksa

aku hendak bermanje dengan dikau
aku hendak mengatakan yang aku cintakan kau
aku hendak merenung mata mu wajah mu tanpa merasa dukacita
aku tidak boleh melakukan semua ini kerana kau bukan milik aku..

tangisan aku dalam diam
aku sedar,aku sedar bahawa kau kebahagiaan aku

boleh kah kau mencintakan aku sekali lagi...

aku memerlukan kau...

let me love you

2007-04-28T05:48:00.000-07:00

i met up with this girl
staring at her eyes
something seems to show that shes my life
i want her to know that she will be mine..
not now but later forever till ma love die

back than i regreted that i leave you for another girl
leaving u crying behind
and now im weeping for you to be mine
this aint no fake tears
i aint no lie
somehow i think that u dun hear me
cause i broke your heart
with my lie

ill get u back,hand to hand
no men behind your back
they aint ma friend if they steal you away from me
ill slit off their throat
so,let her be with me

and im sorry if i broke your heart
cause i need to get back to her
and stop u staring staight at me in the eye
i dont wanna hurt you with ma lie
the longer i wait,the more i lie

hate will grew with despise.......

inspired by a rap battle...than thought of writing out ma feelings...yeah

2007-04-18T04:46:00.000-07:00

Bumi maner tidak di timpah hujan
Tangisan darah tumpah menjejak tanah
Retak gegar bumi berdua
harum nya si bunga berdiri tungal

ermm....well...nothing much happen...i just miss u lar...sayang...ermm...haizz...:(...

2007-03-28T22:14:00.000-07:00

I looked away and then I looked back at you
i tried to say the things that will never make sense to you
if I had my way
I'd never get over you
today's the day I pray that we make it through
make it through the fall
make it through it all
And I don't want to fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it and I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
Atleast u`ll understand how much i love you

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone you bring me back again
back under the stars
back into your arms

everything now revolves arounds you

beanie...

2007-03-25T19:57:00.000-07:00

i lost ma beanie and its not even ma fault...sobz...i know..we have been through all ma hair days...messy..wet..and gelled...but u were there for me...i cant help it...i still remember..how i chosed u among the rest...u stand out among the rest...ur skin...your texture...u make me warm even in the coldest days..if i knew i wouldnt lend u to ma bro...i cant bear to imagine how u are right now...feeling all alone without me...all dirtied...and soiled...or even worse....shreded into pieces..*sobz...please come back to me..i have to replace u...please dun misunderstand me..remember this..u will always be in ma heart...

and yeah..bro u suck...no matter......hmm didnt go to school....:(...got allergy thingy...haizz...

2007-03-23T06:52:00.000-07:00

i just find out sumthing..i need you...i need you to hear my say..my sorrow..my despise...and i need u to believe in my love..dun play around with that again ok..?=D..ma heart drop..sank...shatter...when u say that...haizz...but..hee~..its ok...

haizz...sorry lar...bro..its not that i dun wanna go...i realy wanna go..takder teman nak gi saner dan balik samer samer...mak az sakit..than he cannot go...i noe its not an excuse...but trust me i realy wanna go...dun get mad yar...=D...haizz...it suck...

dun wish to talk bout today..im tired

aku rindu kan engkau...are we drifting apart..

2007-03-22T05:20:00.000-07:00

rinduku,hati aku rindu
padamu
perghibur dukaku
berpisahnya kita tak lagi bertemu
tak mungkin ku lupa dirimu...

bagai lembutnya,si bunga cempaka
harum rindumu mengusuk rasa
mencari dikau dalam sengara
mumujimu dalam duka
kembalilah di sisiku

sepuluh bintang jatuh bertabur oleh bolehkah sama si bulan satu
hanya padamu cinta ku subur
bisa menbacai cinta suci ku..
oh ana piluhnya rasa hatiku

i didnt create this but it take 30 minits..of concentration from ma mum and me..to get the lyrics right..and im proud of it..:D..

well yeah..today suck..lar..i got this mental block...i juz cant stand school boredom...it suck..SUCK i tell u..its like..hell. tell u..HELLL!!!!!!!!!hmm well..

im craving for your attention..you alone..though i didnt talk much bout it..or do anything...its juz that i dun wanna be your burden and yet i wanna hold your burden.i wanna give you a care free life...but i dunno how..tell..me plz..

2007-03-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

i have to admit..that i miss u badly...:(...

ok...

2007-03-20T08:23:00.000-07:00

hmm...i think im missing u like crazy now...juz now...juz reach home..i thought for a moment..u were at ma block..your hair...your spec...your skin tone..and all...it was if it was u...i was kinda glad...hmm..but sumtimes..illusions are not meant to believe..and yeah..it was not you...i miss you...hmm...haizz...but its ok...tmr..i will see you...tomoro..

i didnt go to school punctually..sengaje jer nak perangai...hahah...well yeah...hailz to me...and yeah..i walk alone...she went without me..to do his homewerk..:D..walk alone...god..i feel so strange..but no matter...haha...well yeah...sit at the front parade square...and yeah...the day pass by as per normal..i am so tired..let me juz put some picture and ill go sleep...

i love you...

heh~...

2007-03-17T08:32:00.000-07:00

not gona say anything today...

2007-03-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

yeah...!!!!met YOU!!!...finally...

we went changi...it took hours..but FINALLY reach there hahaha...hmm...i noe its kinda long but..with u beside me..u`ll always make me wanna smile...:D..ahakz..errmm..yeah...went to eat...bought the famouse ayam penyet...SOOOO~ nice...WEEE~~...hahah...than bought roti john...YUM YUM!...but..haizz..i full lar..u lar ni taknak help me eat..hahah..in the end tak habiz..hahah...find a place...than we sat..i sat there pondering bout you..theres so much things to say...and yet words cant describe how i feel about you...haizz...u noe wat i mean...ant than sumthing happen in the buz....something..that...amaze me..i found one strand of her hair...on ma shoulder..it was LIKE..WOOOOOOW~~...amazing...i kept holding it...and stare at it..it was smooth...oh yeah~...and suddenly i felt i was on da cloud...IT WAS LIKE PARADISE...CAN U BELIEVE IT....THAT ONE STRAND OF HAIR..HOLD SO MUCH POWER!!!!OMG!!!!...ANATA remember this...with great power..comes with great responsibility...yeah...i felt as if ma soul were at peace...wooow...omg...than...u saw...and u giggle...and that smile...haizz....gua cair babe..hahahah....and yeah i put that ONE AMAZING HEAVENLY STRAND OF HAIR GENTLY INSIDE MY BEG POCKET!!!...it will be ma good luck charm..heheh...yeah..and after that reach tampinese..suddenly this chubby(fat)...ladi was like..HIE KAK!..and ask for donation...she was kinda shock...i was pissed..cause she made her shock..but..im not gona say anything...and gave her 2 bucks...should have given her ma knuckles...wakkaka...than she topped up her card..n i bought her drink..in the end i drank all..took da mrt...took her foto...and she deleted it all...haizz....well yeah...didnt talk much...but its ok..hahahha....than took 335...send her...kiss her good bye...and went home...

and now...i miss u again.....haizz...

Be with me always OK!!!!!!!!!!!!

DUN FORGET..11.11.11..:D

insya`allah....HEH~...:D

2007-03-13T23:04:00.000-07:00

Yoz...juz came back from...a very emotional camp..that made me cry at the...end..a camp that made me ponder..bout my life...(crapping)...the camp was ok...it WAS FUN...but..the food...damn i hate the food..and..stretchin...hahah...the food as we call em...NASI MENDAK...hahahah...a line quote..`hari ni nasi mendak..esok nasi mendak...HARI HARI MAKN NASI MENDAK...ARGGGHHH`..well...yeah...but ya noe wat fellers...nasi paling mendak will be created by us..rice..will be added with bawang putih..bawang gorend...some DISGUSTING SPICES....and most importantly KUNYIT!!!!!...wakkakKKA..its an in thing...if ya wanna know..ask me...ill gladly tell u...hmm..oh yeah...the first night of da camp n da last...like duh..its like a 2 day one night camp..we joke around...and we slept for like only 1 hour...like OMG OMG!!!...but we had fun..crapping about girls....and KUNYIT!!!!!....hahaha...and some stuff bout kening...on da nipple...like WTH lar....kk...well..yeah it was fun i suppose...

had fun with ma daughter...huhahahhshes nice...well..WE HAD FUN TOGETHER..WUHUUU~...yeah...nice to get her as ma daughter..

AKU NAK CERAI NGN KAU DADDY!!YOU **%%$$#$%

give up..

2007-03-07T06:50:00.000-08:00

ok guys and girls...first of all..i wont give up...though i suck...big time the last few days...its just that..da pressure is killing me...

i know ure secret..:D...
dont deny..
u cant keep it to urself forever..
hahah...

but dun worry..
im an observer..:D...
it doesnt hurt me one bit..
not even a sting..
:D

2007-03-06T00:11:00.000-08:00

im breaking down...argghh...

i wanna break down arh..will that help..??

take this pain away...

2007-03-05T03:03:00.000-08:00

u know..
when i look at your eyes..
i stoped thinking..
my heart beats faster than usual
is this what you call love..??

when you are with me..
i feel so alive
u could even make me smile
during the gloomiest day
so will u be by my side forever..??

when u get sick
fever, flu..headaches..or even tummy ache
i cant see that..
it pains me..
can u let me aid u to get well..??

when i walk u home
i wish the time will stop for a while..
i would like to enjoy every second with u
and when i say goodbye,
look at my eyes..
its all a lie..i dun wish to go..i wanna stay with you..much longer..if can...forever..

i am crazyly in love with you...

can i have a kiss please...bao bei..

2007-03-04T06:07:00.000-08:00

sobz...

mama..

2007-03-03T00:10:00.000-08:00

I love u the way u are..
i love every inch of you..
and i realy appreciate whatever u have done for me..
but i hate it when u get sick..and get hospitalised..:(

Do u remember that day when i hid behind the curtain cause i was alone..
and soon after..
you had given me a life partner..
and after 9 mth and 9 days later..
he was born..

i realy appreciate that..i do..

I cant feel the pain that you had laboured,
but i come to realise that..the pain is unimaginable
through the months that you carried me..

And when the 26th of november 1989 arrived
i faced the world for the first time..

And when the years pass by..
u had never disapoint me..
and u had never fail to be there for me..

i apologise for the tears that rolled down on your cheek
the heart wrenching pain that u had felt..
the betrayal..
and if theres a chance to take something back..
i would take the foul words that i said to you..
it was not meant for you..
i am sorry..

Now..i would like to tell you
that i love you mama..
i wanna see you smile..and be proud of me..
ill show you with my results..just wait and see ok mama..?

type by hafiz

haya ya ya yaaaashh...

2007-03-02T01:17:00.000-08:00

k here i am..with ma jacket on..its freaking cold..i woke up around 5 10..than call her..cause its raining...and shes sick..and yeah..i got worried..so decided to call her to check her out...shes at marina..with her friends..n yeah shes happy..dats all that matters..walk home safely ok..i miss you...

Today i decided to...it may be shocking..but i wanna quit dikir barat...HAH?!!!!wat??!!he is quiting.???y..????..ill asnwer to that question...simply its because of O level...damn...i hate to say that word...O LE~VEl...arrrggGhHH...make me wanna cry...im hungry now..no one to acompany me..and yeah..and ill eat all alone...talk to amiril about my starvation that almost lead to suicide...

i wanna go eat..whose with me..? says:
ill eat alone..
i wanna go eat..whose with me..? says:
without FRIENDS...and just live life normally...all alone and depressed..thinking that everyone..hate me...doesnt care bout me...and im sad..miril...IM SAD!!...deciding to starve my self...till ma food arrive...and which my biological mum will buy for me...oh~..wat loyalty..
Grim says:
tt sounded
Grim says:
nice in a bizzare way

yeah..and YESH...WUUHUU..ma friend..clarey is here to share my pain with him...i love u...(sound so gay)..but its ok...no one will know how i feel...no one does...u heartless humans..u WONT UNDERSTAND....AARGGHH..ill bleed my self...once more..oozing out yellow undistilled water..from wat you all normally call PENIS...but i as an emotional being..with heart...i treat every part of mine preciously..i called it tweet tweet..huhahahha...im sick...YES!im sick...dun compare me..u idiots...do u noe that it has a mind on its own..it stiffen and get hard..when i dun wanna it too..yeah...

wat..?hate me..??hate me for all i care...but remember this people...
i love~ you...especiallly u my love..

LYDIA!!LYDIA!!

2007-03-01T00:35:00.000-08:00

i wanna tell u...that I LURRRVE you so much...wuhuuu..u make my world go around...till i cant stop spinning..oo yeah..*dizzy* now..well today basically nothing sad happen...EXCEPT for the pants...OMG!!..so sad...so depressing..its like suddenly..my mind turn blank..and tears started to roll..*sobz*..like WTF...hahahah...than came a light..which in da form of stick which have nicotine inside it..which had given me adrenalin rush...n yeah...i feel so high after that...wuhhuu

oh yeah let me end today...

never thought that
u..could make a huge impact on me..
u take my pain away...
never mind da hurtful time..
may god bless you..
amen

carve

2007-02-28T01:59:00.000-08:00

i wanna carve the pain on my body
to let you people see the pain
And yet i wanna be in the darkness
to be far away from 'them'

But there`s 'her'
my light,my key to my happiness..
I dont wanna let her see the scar..
i dun wish to exprience the pain once more..

So dun talk about my past..
dun talk bout my failure..

all i want..
is the key to my happiness..
and you,to walk by me on the long unknown path of mine

so will you..?

....i gona get my black t`s on friday...huray for me..huhahah..oh yeah..juz now went down to alter my pants...tight...'\,,\..hailzz..to the tight fitting pants..so guys smack me will ya..ahah..saw my family..n went mcdonald to eat...n yeah..iryan pay for me...tanx..my 6 year friend of mine...hahah..hes a pain sumtime..but hes ok..

my dear girl is sick...get well soon..ok..?anything can make u feel better tell me..ill do anything in my pwer to help you..muackz

tired...shes tired

2007-02-27T00:29:00.000-08:00

Today was my chemistry test...which i think ill do badly..like so stupid ar..haizz...than it was study..study...arggghhh...exhousted...very exhousted..and you are too...:(..after school saw swalihin and friends play poker and i won..hahah...than i saw you..whenever i see you..i will feel so high..*ehem-ehem* ....as in..im like floating in da middle of the cloud..and you were like the angel...kk back to reality...you were tired..poor you..rest early ok..insya allah u`ll feel better..so went to eat lunch with andi and friends..YUM YUM...hmm..than went for ciggiz..hmm..so nice of them to sponsor me..hahah...went home feeling tired..drag my self home..n here i am in front of the computer...

can the time stop..please...
im tired..

should i..?

2007-02-26T03:35:00.001-08:00

i woke up juz now with her on my head..hahah..should i call her now..?nah maybe later,she must be studying r must be tired.. (below is just an expression how i feel bout you)

I wanna pledge my sincerety to you
I wanna carve your name across my chest..
I want `us` to last
I want u to be my life line in the end

every sentence start with the word I..isnt it selfish..?isnt I the term to use oneself..maybe you people wont understand..

Although i didnt talk to you,it doesnt mean i got bored of you
I am just afraid that you are tired...and sometime my choice of word isnt right
when i didnt call u it doesnt mean that you are bored..it is just that i dun wanna disturb you..
when i say goodbye and leave u with a smile..dun trust this smile ,it always hurt to say goodbye..
when i stare n look at you for a long time..its not because im nuts..
its because to me you are the sweetest thing belonging to me right now..

And when you smile..my sadness will fade..
my problems will go away..so dun be sad my love..
cause you are my joy till that `very day`

oright...ma new blog

2007-02-26T00:57:00.000-08:00

OK!..tanx aying..my blogspot creator classmate of mine..huhaha..right..:D

2007-02-26T00:26:00.001-08:00

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